Fell in love with a kebab, she doesn't want to talk to me

I [23/m] am in my graduation year in university in Canada. While working on a group project with three other people, all of whom were close friends, all [23/f], one of my partners made a mistake costing us 20%. It made all the work I had put into the project worthless. I had had a very bad day, that night I could not sleep and messaged to confide in a girl who is in the group and whom I have a crush on, a kebab.

I said a lot of negative things in my rant about the partner who had made the mistake but I started off by saying that "All three of you are a bunch of morons." My friend calmed me down but seemed a bit upset.

When i met her the next day she was very angry at me and told me how no one had ever called her a moron in her life. It was our last week together before we were going our separate ways and she refused to do anything social with me and cancelled plans we had already made but we were still talking normally.

I was very apologetic and I tried to make things right. Said I am sorry and asked for her forgiveness but she refused. We had a fight a month prior where she was rude to me but she apologized and we then reconciled and everything was perfect.

I was very upset though that she was behaving as such and choosing to end things on bad terms. I got angry and cut off all contact with her. There was still a bit of the project left to do and the remaining time was awkward. We didn't say anything to each other. I expected her to attempt to reconcile as I believed her at fault but she didn't try to.

I got further upset and sent her an email, explaining my actions. The email was not rude but ended things by a "goodbye and good luck with your life' line.

After a couple of days I was overcome with grief, and I unblocked her on fb and apologized to her in a message and added her as a friend. After two days she deleted the friendship request and marked it as spam so i cannot add her again and she did not reply to me.

I then texted her and she said that there wasn't anyway we could be friends because i said too many mean things and that I should stop messaging her and wished me a good life.

I called her but she did not pick up so I sent another written apology a couple of days later, which has gotten no response for two days. This person has since left to Kebabia and will not be returning. I will never see them again but they have left all avenues of communication open.

I know I have made plenty of mistakes here but I would really like to reconcile. What can I do?

Can the racist community of atwar please tell me that the kebab wasn't worth it?
She was 10/10 and had a nice butt and we did lots of things together but geez was she thick and have an awful personality.